So, I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing. This pregnancy is kind of flying under the radar. When I was pregnant with Annika, my life centered around being pregnant. Everything I did, everything I ate, everything I drank and everything I read was focused on pregnancy. With Bianca, I was still able to focus on being pregnant. I always knew what was developing at what point, how big she should be and how much weight she would gain this month. With this pregnancy, the only thing I can tell you about this baby's development is that the outer genitalia are fully developed, and I only know that because I was hoping to see a little weenie at my 11 week ultrasound! I honestly don't know how big the baby is, what's developing, and you can bet that I am drinking massive amounts of caffeine and eating loads of sugar! When people ask how I feel, I want to say, "fine, how are you today?". It takes me a moment to realize that they are asking me that because I'm pregnant! Duh! I seriously forget, well save for the fact that I am getting fatter by the day and my exhaustion level is rising to new extremes!
I attribute my lack of attention to this pregnancy to my 2 girls that are right here in front of me. It doesn't mean that I love this child any less, right? I have every right, and obligation as a mother, to devote all of my attention to the 2 healthy girls I have with me right now. Also, the fact that they take up every living minute of my day is a huge factor. Even if I tried to read a pregnancy book, Annika would try to take it from me and look at the pictures. So, it's lost on me how I could actually know what's going on inside my very own body. Perhaps once this baby starts to move, and we can give him, or her, an identity, things will change. Maybe once my belly extends far enough out where I can't touch my toes, I will have a change of heart. Until then, I will continue to live my day to day life for Annika and Bianca (and Brian too).
I must mention also, that I have decided that being pregnant is not high up on my list of favorite things to do. I mean really, the only enjoyable part to me is knowing that in 40 WEEKS I will get to hold this little miracle in my arms, and life can truly begin. It's not to say that I'm not grateful and blessed with my ability to conceive and carry a healthy child, because I truly am. Without that, I would have no Annika, and no Bianca. In my mind, my life would be empty and quite boring (I love my husband and in now way mean that life with only him would suck). So yes, I will endure the 40 WEEKS it takes to grow this little one, and try not to whine to much about it. But, for now, I'm bitter because I'm fighting a cold and cannot take anything worth while, I am having a hard time sleeping due to a backache that is never ending, and I can't drink wine! In my mind, my lack of attention to pregnancy #3 (not baby #3) is a good thing.
Isn't it gorgeous? I know, a pond and some trees, big deal, right? People all over the world live on the ocean, or on top of a majestic mountain. Not me, I live on my own little piece of wilderness in Minnesota and I am so content with my surroundings. How could you not be happy looking at this in the morning? Here's another shot.
It's the most perfect, crisp fall day. The trees are starting to turn all shades of amazing, the fog just dusting the pond. I dare you all to share your surroundings and I hope that you are all just as content with them, as I am with mine. Have a wonderful Friday!
Wednesdays are good days. My mom takes Annika every Wednesday. While I miss her, I do cherish the idea of having only one child around, and B and I can bond a little! Yesterday, my mom took Annika to a local pumpkin patch to run around and explore. It was a beautiful day and Annika had a blast. Here are some pictures my mom took:
Bianca and I just stuck around here for most of the day. Later on, we made a looooong trip to Cologne, MN to visit my friend Jen and her new baby Emily. Being the dope that I am, I brought my camera, but do you think I took any pics of little Miss Emily? Nope! I'm such an idiot. She was a whopping 9lbs 13oz at birth! Way to go Jen! Since I didn't take pictures of Emily, here is the link to Emily's website. I did manage to take some of Bianca and Harrison though! Seriously, can you believe that Harrison is 3 months younger than B?
And I just love this one of Harrison, he's too darn cute!
Last but not least, Happy Birthday to Ryan! Ryan is Harrison's daddy and he turns 28 today!
Happy 8 months my little pumpkin! Bianca turned 8 months last Thursday. Thanks to Leslie for the reminder! Here is a picture of Bianca at 8 months. I know I've shared this picture before, but I just love it!
What is Bianca doing at 8 months you ask? Well, she is doing a whole lot:
* Furiously trying to crawl, has done it once, but hasn't since then. She actually did it the day of her 8 month anniversary!
*Starting to eat "real" foods, although I'm bit of a spaz and freak out when she chokes, so I haven't started a whole lot.
*She pulls up on anything she can get her hands on, even me!
*Loves her big sister, she especially loves to pull her hair!
*Is facinated with books. She loves them!
*Going through the dreaded separation anxiety phase, although I never leave her! She freaks out if I turn my back. Sort of flattering, I guess!
Hey all, I promised a picture and an update. Here's the 11 week picture:
Here's the update:
I had an ultrasound to test for down's syndrome. I wasn't really worried that the baby would have it, I just used it as an excuse to make sure the baby was doing ok, and of course to take a peek! Well, the baby looks great, no down's indicators. I think the baby looks like a boy, but I could have swore that the tech went between the legs and I definitely saw 3 little lines (that means girl). So, we'll see. I could be completely off too and he was looking at the heart or something! I'm no expert. So anyway, the baby was measuring a few days ahead, yet I've lost 2 pounds in the last 4 weeks. So that is good, baby is growing! I also saw my doctor and she reassured me that all would be fine and that raising 3 so close together would be a piece of cake! We both laughed at that! So, my next appointment is in October and my next ultrasound is scheduled for November 27th, so make a guess as to what we'll have. I'm hoping boy, but my guess is girl! Thanks for checking in.
The wedding has successfully come and gone! The festivities all began on Thursday when Erin and I checked in at our hotel. Our day was to be filled with work and fun. We started by getting our nails done. Erin got both a mani and a pedi, I was a running a little late from my doctors appointment (I'll post an u/s pic and belly pic later) so I just got a pedi, it was so fantastic though! After that, we went out to lunch with my mom, my grandma and my aunt Brenda, who flew in from FL. Here is Erin and me at lunch.
After lunch, we headed to the hall to do some set up work. My mom and aunt conveniently showed up after all the chair covers were put on... Later on we headed to the hotel to relax a bit and get ready for the groom's dinner. Stew's Dad and Step Mom hosted and it was a lovely night. It was held in the atrium at the Embassy Suites. The ambience was beautiful and relaxing. Food was eaten, drinks were enjoyed and fun was had by all. Annika had fun playing on this gazebo and chasing the domestic ducks. She was so darn cute!
Here are some more of the rehearsal dinner:
Erin and me...
The bride and groom...
Erin and the bridesmaids (she had 8!)...
Here are some pictures before the wedding started. Everyone looked gorgeous. The colors were perfect! Here is one of Erin at Mear's Park. Wasn't it amazing there? Isn't she beautiful?
Here's one of my dad, me and my mom:
The lovely bride and handsome groom.
Annika, the flower girl, Stew, Cooper, the ring bearer and Stew's little brother, and Erin.
Finally, some pics of the reception. Annika had sooooo much fun dancing. She loved the lights and loud music. She danced until about 10pm! So many people tried to dance with her, but she was in her own little world and didn't want any partners. I have some great video and I will try to upload it.
Erin and Stew's first dance as husband and wife.
Annika and Daddy:
The wedding is officially over, but I just want to say how beautiful it was and how honored I was to be such a big part of my little sister's wedding. She made a beautiful bride and I gained a great brother. I've created a little blog for their wedding pictures that I took, so if you are interested, go check it out. Once we get the professional one's, I'll try to post more. I didn't get a whole lot of our family, or the girls (I'm a bit bummed because they were both so darn cute and well behaved!). Enjoy, and if you do visit, leave a comment for the newlyweds!
Tonight I took the girls to Brian's parents for dinner, minus Brian. The day started off just as terribly as it ended. The girls were really testing my patience and sanity today, throwing fit after fit. At dinner, Annika actually slapped me on the face. She was sent straight into a time out, and later said sorry for hitting me. What a little snot! Bianca was overly tired despite the 4 hours worth of naps she took today. Perhaps teeth? Who knows. So, anyway. I'll share some pictures of the evening. Once again, I forgot to drag along my expensive camera, you know, the one I swore I'd always use!!! So, Jeff got a new camera, and Kristi took pictures. Enjoy...
Here's one of Bianca:
She's always got that bottom lip in her mouth. Once, it even turned black and blue from her sucking!
Here's one of me and B:
She is just so darn cute. I can't help but cuddle the little pumpkin! By the way, the outfit she's wearing in 12-18 months in size! Holy crap, she's huge!
Me and Fran sitting on the bench by the pond:
And last, but not least, Annika decked out in her Vikings gear, boo Vikings, way to lose to Detroit!
I'll really try to be more interesting, but to be honest, life is very uneventful lately. I have an ultrasound on Thursday, so sometime after the wedding I'll post a belly pic and a picture of the babe, and of course the results. Sleep well all!