This week, change, and I don't mean coins in the pocket. I've recently been thinking about change and the idea of change. My dear friend Leslie does not like change. I on the other hand, love change. I love to change my hair, my house, my furniture and my clothes. My neighbor commented one day that she saw me in 4 outfits by 4pm! Funny stuff. That's not the kind of change I'm talking about. Not physical change, but psychological change. I mean the change that is hard to do, the kind where you have to change your lifestyle, mode of thinking. Is there something about yourself, or your life that you should change, or want to change, but put it off because it's easier to do that? Could you work harder on the job, but just do the minimal to stay alive? Is your marriage a little rocky and there is just too little time and energy to make it better? What about your kids? Could you spend more time with them, rather than watching tv, or surfing the net?
I know we all have something, perhaps many things we could change. I would love to have more patience with my kids. Sometimes it's just easier to get crabby and yell. I hate being like that and I don't want my kids to think of me as a screaming banchy. I want to be seen as a kind and warm person with a voice of reason. That's a lot of work and it takes a lot of energy to tackle that one.
My marriage is good, Brian and I are happy. But at times, we barely get a moment to talk because we are always busy with the kids. When we do get a moment, we are too exhausted to say anything. This is not ok with me. We are done having kids, and soon enough they will be grown enough for us to change this easily, but I don't want to wait until Bennett is 2, you know? So, the other night, I made a conscious effort to talk to him and even cuddle him! Brian will be the first to tell you that I really don't like cuddling. But, it was nice and I went to bed happy.
My last thing I really want to change about myself is my motivation. It is so easy to be lazy and not exercise. I hate that about me. I wish I had the drive to just go to the gym, but really I have to force myself. There is also the guilt factor for me. That's 2 hours I could be spending with the kids. In reality, it's just as good for them, as it is for me! I need to work out and have time to myself. They get to play with other kids and get other adult interaction at the daycare. Everyone wins.
So, if you are feeling brave and want to expose your deepest flaws (not really flaws), please go ahead and share. Either leave a comment, or post on your blog. The only thing I ask is leave me a comment so I know where to read and post a link to my blog so that others may have the chance to bare all as well! Happy Thursday all!
I'll link to other TFT'ers when they get around to "thinking" today!
Kristi on neighbors
Jenny on giving the "bump"
Jessica on culture