The sun just set here in MN and while I feel pretty good, and my hormones aren't raging, I'm still feeling a little unsettled. I've been away from home now for almost 3 nights. I am really missing the girls and it's exaggerated by the fact that the few times I have seen them I have been somewhat impatient and short with them. They are just being kids and acting the way they would at a hospital, but I can't do anything for them physically and that is hard. I'm feeling stressed about not being a good mommy to them, and getting Bennett healthy to come home. It's just a little overwhelming and I'm just a little sad. Time is running out here and I'm scared that he won't be coming home with me. It's just a huge loss of control and you all know that I'm a control freak. So, say an extra prayer for my sanity tonight. I really appreciate it. I will update again tomorrow! Love you all!
Some light reading...
- a little bit of me.
- Another Bun in the Oven
- Collins Family Ramblings
- Driving With the Brakes On
- Every day with the Kellys
- everyday life
- Happenings today...
- I Drank the Water
- I've Come Undone
- It's a "Me-ocracy" and I'm the PRESIDENT!
- Just My Type
- just my type
- Kid Food
- Leftover Lefse
- Life at 5532
- Kristi Sauer
I am a gifted education specialist - Nicole Barczak Photography
- Oh. My. Words
- One Swift Click
stay at home working mommy jus' tryin' to keep it all together... - Randomness
- Sauer Family Website
- stickyfeathers
- stickyfeathers
- Straightforward
- Jeff Sauer
- The New Mr. and Mrs. Cronquist
- The Ride of our Lives
- The Suburban Zoo
it's hard to be patient when you are tired, sore, stressed and trapped in a tiny room with 2 crazy toddlers. i know when i had ava i couldn't wait for mark to take the boys home...then i felt so guilty. hang in there michelle. i'm praying for you.
Posted by: zoe | March 15, 2008 at 11:02 PM
Michelle, I hope your little man is doing better today. I have been and will continue to keep your family in my thoughts! I can only imagine how tough this must be for you.
Posted by: Mary | March 14, 2008 at 10:00 AM
Leaving the hospital without your baby is hard...my son was born 8 weeks early and was in the NICU at Fairview Southdale for 8 weeks...but if it happens that Bennett needs some extra time in the hospital just know that he's getting the care he needs. Doesn't make it easier, but you want a healthy baby at home!! He is beautiful and I love the name.
You look really familiar, did you go to St Olaf?
Posted by: Hilary | March 14, 2008 at 09:35 AM
get some rest and you'll all be home in no time :) we're thinking about you.
Posted by: jessica | March 14, 2008 at 09:21 AM
michelle - i know exactly how you are feeling. even though i didn't have two little girls waiting for me at home, i had to go through leaving the hospital without tucker. there are just not words that express the feeling inside. i am praying that he gets stronger (and eats what he should) soon so he can go home with you. you are a GREAT mom. it is just the hormones are playing with your brain. get some rest.
Posted by: jenny | March 14, 2008 at 08:36 AM
He is so adorable! You look really good too. I was thinking I would be able to get there by 7 tonight. Are you still going to be in the hospital?
Posted by: Kris | March 14, 2008 at 08:29 AM
Oh Michelle! I'm sorry things seem so gloomy right now. Hang in there. You can't be 100% perfect all the way around. Right now your priorities are getting YOURSELF better and helping Bennett get strong enough to go home. You just had a baby and you've had a rough couple days. I know its hard to, but give yourself a break- you're doing a GREAT JOB!! Annika and Bianca won't remember your snappiness or inability to do things for them for this short period of time. Just focus on the short term for now. I'm sure... all this sounds nice and easy in writing. I know how terrible it is post partum, and I'm sure its a zillion times worse with your baby not being able to be with you all the time and not knowing if he'll be coming home with you. Hang in there. We're all thinking of you guys and hoping Bennett strengthens up quickly!!
Posted by: nicole | March 14, 2008 at 07:37 AM
Consider it done! I will say extra prayers for you and Bennett! Hang in there, and be comforteed by knowing many people support you. Soon everything will be normal.
Posted by: amy | March 14, 2008 at 06:08 AM
Michelle,
As far as I'm concerned, you are Super Woman! Congrats to you and Brian on welcoming Baby Bennett. We can't wait to meet him!
S
Posted by: Sara G | March 13, 2008 at 11:06 PM
Uh-oh, I was worried about you and how you were going to do with the post-partum. That's a really hard, sad situation for a mommy to be in. It will be very hard to go home without Bennett, but you also want to be confident that all is well before doing so. Keeping him within medical reach for the next couple of days might not be a bad idea.
You are always going to be there for the girls, I am sure they miss you like crazy too but Brian can handle them for a few days, can't he?! xoxooxoxox
I will talk to you tomorrow
Posted by: Kristi S | March 13, 2008 at 10:32 PM
Hugs all around. It has to be tough on everyone. I hope he gets to come home with you!!
Posted by: Robyn | March 13, 2008 at 09:07 PM